How we need anniversaries. They mark the cycle of the year, reminding us that the sun will indeed return or that another season of growing has passed. They also help us move beyond Fear.
They remind us of what we have lost and they encourage us to see what we have gained as well as what we have become.
Shortly after the September 2010 earthquake, while I was clearing the Skudder House, I noticed this photograph in an old copy of the Christchurch Press dated June 11 1966. I particularly noticed it, because this building was frequently in the background news shots of a historic building which had been severly quake damaged. This image is so triumphant: celebrating Christchurch's progress in a new age of construction and technology. Now Christchurch affords new opportunities to the construction industry - for demolition, and the photograph below from The Christchurch Press dated November 17 2011 shows that the Manchester Unity/AMI building had also succumbed to later earthquake damage.
Opportunity. Entrepreneurs thrive in this post-disaster climate, although that dubious invention of humanity - insurance, and in this case, the reluctance of the insurance companies to reinsure - has stalled many projects.
Someone has seen the loss of suburban chimney stacks as a business opportunity, offering faux fitted chimneys from a relocatable showcase.
But many of the opportunities for re-vitalisation have come from altruistic individuals and community collectives. With its shop gone, this abandoned chiller has become a book fridge. It sits on the corner of Barbadoes and Kilmore Streets, an exchange for anyone to use.
And a few blocks south along Barbadoes St, on the site of a pretty landmark brick townhouse is the serene Butterfly Gap Filler.
Then there are gasp-aloud surprises like this view, spotted driving home one evening. So familiar this dome, yet so utterly out of place.
Someone - both altruistic and entrepreneurial I suspect - has rescued the cupola that once stood as an ornate statement to the hey-day of cinematic grandeur, above the beautifully restored Regent Theatre in Cathedral Square. Now it perches in suburban Linwood, a forlorn folly.
The gardens have established and softened in the new village in the city. I return to
ReStart often for it's ambience, and easy vibe. But nobody visiting there is oblivious to what has happened to this city. The tourists walk in a daze and ask questions in hushed tones. The talk at the cafe tables is about, red-zoned houses, insurance payouts, whether to stay or go...
When I drive past this scene - the one I opened this post with - my heart still sears with loss, and I remember Simon's ashen face, his dust-filled hair, and grimed hands from digging a co-worker out of the rubble of the pink building to the left of the photo. But I also think of Bryony planning to study Drama at the Polytech one block away, and feel the excitement of a Student world at the epicentre of renewal.
This year of facing and surviving loss - of different kinds - has prepared me for what is about to happen closer to home...
as building after building in my local town is closed for safety reasons. In the wake of the official inquiries into
failure of Christchurch buildings during the February 22 Earthquake, the Waimakariri District Council is prudently distancing itself from the cavalier approach by professionals,
which lead to unsound buildings killing people last year.
Some of these buildings will be retained but some will be demolished as well - the old, the familiar - but no longer do I feel that buildings determine me. I look forward to what might be: our own shipping container enclave; a main street no longer orientated to channel the prevailing chill Easterly right through all the outdoor cafe areas, but broken up into courtyards with linked parking; or something else altogether that honours the small town spirit but remodels Rangiora for the future.
Today there is an understanding that people must be able to commemorate the anniversary of last year's worst earthquake in whatever way is most healing. For some that is to ignore it; for others it is important to be part of the remembrance ceremonies, and for others it is enough to reflect in solitude.
Here in Ashley, locals have responded to a call to decorate road cones with flowers. This is really aimed at the roadworks around the city, which have become a symbol of failed infra-structure and dis-location, but these offerings on roadworks at the entrance to the village are heartfelt none the less.